If there has been some certainty in my life lately, it is that who I’m becoming is who I’m supposed to be. And I love it. I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing right now and living at peace doing it.
Yesterday, I had a strange encounter with a lady who is now my former boss. I call it strange because her body language and the tone of her voice never seems to match up with the things that come out of her mouth. And me, I’m very blunt, to begin with. Sometimes the truth hurts, Sometimes the truth just needs to be told for everyone’s benefit.
If you don’t already know this about me after seven years at the same job, stressing myself out day in and day out. I decided that It wasn’t for me anymore. I took the risk of having no job. When I finally found one I knew that I wasn’t going to get paid what I had previously been making, and I had to be ok with that so I could work in a better environment. Thus came the job offer at my church. Yes, I said it, my church. My heart and soul, the place that feeds my spirit every week is the same place that caused such a ruckus.
There are a few key points I think that everyone can learn from this encounter including myself. Mostly myself, since I was the one primarily in the situation. There are just some things that I believe need to be talked about, they are the problem with today’s society, and why it continues to dwindle down hill.
Point One: I mentioned earlier that I work at my church. You would think that means everyone is nice and friendly. well, you’re wrong and so was I. There are plenty of not so nice people that I work with, including the said boss. Me, believing that things can change with a little hard work I was told: “If you’re thinking that this place is going to change I’m going to tell you right now it’s not going to happen and there’s nothing you can do about it.” And you’re the reason this world is the dissenting pessimistic place it is today. Just like the rest of them and that’s a way I refuse to be.
Point two: This one really just irks my nerve because I frown upon jealousy. We as adults need to empower one another until we make our way to the top. not try and knock them down on our way because it wasn’t our idea. I was told, “To be frank, Pastor (Insert name here) doesn’t have the time to talk to you and listen to your opinions.” Followed by a, “I’ve never even had the chance to sit and talk with him personally.” What? Well first off to be frank, if he didn’t have the time or didn’t want to hear me out. He wouldn’t. and that’s that. Second, telling me that you haven’t had that opportunity tells me you’re jealous in effect. And that’s not my problem, it’s yours.
Point three: At this point, I’m crying. I work in a church. Why am I surrounded by so many negative people? Who are you to tell me my pastor doesn’t have the time to talk to me? employee or not. It’s none of your business. I’ve briefly said this to people, and sometimes they just don’t understand. I cry, I cannot help it sometimes. I can control it for the most part, but sometimes I can’t and it’s not you, it’s not me it’s a terrible result of Pseudobulbar affect. So for you to tell me “OMG you need help, I cannot help you, you crying and writing is a serious problem.” Well, no because you don’t know my story you don’t what I’m doing or have been doing to reach the level I am at today. Mental illness is my battle, and I’m battling it just fine. People who are that ignorant should probably just do us all a favor and keep your mouth shut. Trouble is inevitable but misery is optional, and I’m far from miserable!
It’s one of the saddest things in the world when people attack other people, When people are jealous, When they spread so much hate. And they do it all in inequality. We are all equal, We all have troubles, We are all just people. You are not going to get to the top by being in an internal world of such hate and disgust. You may be rich, but in life, you will be poor. Love your life, And love the life of those around you. It’s a gift, NOT a privilege. This is very important people: Teamwork, Makes the dream work!
“Because you say, ” I am rich, Have become wealthy, and have nothing of need – And do not know that you are wretched, miserable, poor, blind, and naked.” Revelations 3:17