I’ve learned a lot of things over the course of my life thus far. And of course, I still have much to learn. But if there’s one lesson that’s been in the cards the most it’s that at the end of the day you can’t trust anyone but yourself. The only one that’s going to have your back at the end of the day is you and only you. It deeply saddens me to see people, especially people that are supposed to be a family make the choice to hurt one another. When push comes to shove, people get to pushing. If someone is willing to give you the shirt off their back, why would you turn around and stab them in it?
I don’t understand why I have the life that I have or why things happen the way that they happen. But what I do know is that I didn’t choose this life, it chose me. All the people that are in my life, all of the family that I have, they are a part of me for a reason. Whatever the reason may be good or bad, there is a reason. When people make choices they have to live with them. Not only do they have to live with them but when those people choose to have a family so do those around them.
When I was growing up, my biological father wasn’t around. I know him but he isn’t a very good person. Thankfully, my mother has a big family and my aunt and uncle were willing to step in and help raise me. They had me the majority of the time while my mother was working. Most of the memories I have of my childhood include them in one way or another. Instead of calling them aunt and uncle, they became known as grandma and papa. My papa had become my best friend. He is my best friend. He’s the man who stood up when no one else did and showed me what was wrong and what was right. He taught me how to ride a bike, and how to fix a car. Because of him I know I can do anything I want (Thank you, papa). This was what he made the choice to do, which I am eternally grateful for.
The older I get the more I feel obligated to help those who’ve helped me. I want to help them. It brings me joy to help them. I work really hard every day so that one day they can live a life of ease because that’s how much I love them. Everything I do in life is for them. But there comes a point in time where people get blurry vision. They get so caught up in what’s going on around them, that they actually forget who is there for them. When it comes to myself, however, the problem is that I don’t forget. I don’t forget anything. And I really don’t like to let things go lightly. Because you see I’m one of those people you want in your corner. I’m the one that’s there at the end of the party when everyone went home. So when someone turns their back on me, let’s just say that was a bad choice on your end my friend. It’s very tough if at all possible to come back into my life once you walk out.
Today, I had a few more people in my family make the choice to walk out of my life today. It’s a day I will never forget. I thought that these people were going to be with me until the end. But as it turns out, that’s not the case. Every day we have a choice to make whether it be what to eat for breakfast or choosing to turn your back on a wounded family member during a time of need. Everyone has a choice. Now I too have a choice to make.