Hours spent crying: 6
Hours spent writing: 3
Originally I set out to write an open letter for this week’s post. You know one of ? One of those. But instead, I decided to write a post of appreciation. Appreciation posts are my favorite. I really enjoy appreciating the people in my life. Even during the sad times.
You see, the thing about being on this island is that people come and people go. I guess that’s true about life in general, it’s just that here there’s a small window of time. So when it’s time for someone to leave it’s sad and expected. However, I didn’t expect to be this sad when a certain person left for the season.
To tell you the truth I’m not entirely sure why I was so sad. Maybe it’s because I wanted something I couldn’t have. Maybe it’s because I feel like there wasn’t enough time. Or maybe it’s because I wasted two months not engaging with this person so now I feel guilty. I’m not really sure.
There’s a part of me that just feels like I didn’t get enough time with this person. Yet in the same sense, I also feel like we had all the time we needed. It was enough for me to appreciate and love this person for who they are. It was enough for me to knew that this isn’t goodbye but instead a see you soon. And for now, that’s enough.
It’s going to have to be enough because they got already got on a plane and headed back to Romania. As for me, I still have another 25 days left on Mackinac and I honestly can’t wait to leave. I can’t wait to take some time for myself and explore before heading to the Keys.
I will say though that I’ve learned a lot about myself being around this person and I’ve also learned a lot about my experience with others. That alone allows me to appreciate the situation for what it was. I made a new friend and for that I am grateful. Sad but grateful.
See you in Romania.